Well, I did end up getting those days off next week. I have to work for a couple of hours tomorrow yet then Im off for ALMOST 5 DAYS!

YAY!

Happy birthday to me.

In other news I expect to get a new video card.


And also Im hoping my federal taxes came in today.

I hate delving into my subconscious. Ugh, what a nightmare. Ive been trying to get a better handle on my temper lately, and let me tell you.

Sure, I had a bad childhood. I guess I have repressed childhood anger at my parents.

Ill be the first to admit, Im not too fond of my parents, they are some pretty screwed up people. I dont talk to them anymore. Its been about 3 years for Mom (Ever since she had to have alot of her intestine removed and then kept right on drinking 24 beers a day after that, Im tired of her drinking, so I dont deal with her anymore), and about....17 years for Dad (he tried to call me and talk about the weather about 10 years ago...I kinda blew him off. Guess I hold a handful of dead pets, moms broken bones, that time he kicked her down the stairs, and my own beatings against him).

But the point is...Im not really mad about this stuff...Its all so far back, what can be done now? Do I need to have a crying, screaming fit about it everyday for the rest of my life to not have these anger episodes?

Im not buying it.

Im sorry world Im screwed up I guess. Cant put my finger on what Im so mad about and so I can never come to terms with it.

Or something like that. Ill let you know how the situation developes. But so far, all the anger management stuff Ive read just leads me back to the same place.

What am I so angry about? Beats the crap out of me...

Man, the people in DDO are pissing me off.

I never had this problem when my character was lower level but now that Im up in the higher ranges Im sick of running into "know it alls", people barking orders or belittling party members.

I got into a fight last night with a guy because he was verbally lambasting a wizard for charming a skeleton that when it died a door opened (You cant kill things while they are charmed). But I told him he was being annoying and I would leave if he didnt stop, then he left. Jerk.

Why must people be such jerks?

Chad do you ever have that problem in WOW?

Im trying to take Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday off.

I hope my boss lets me have it. Its my birthday on Tuesday.

Ill be 30.

Not to worried about being 30. Just another number. Im still a intellectual and emotional child, Id guestimate my mental age as 12.

And Im not viewing that as a bad thing.

My anniversary was this weekend.

1 year paper, what a pain, buying paper gifts, its not as easy as it sounds, lemme tell you.

I got my wife:

A framed and matted wedding certificate
a book
breakfast in bed with sparkling cider and flowers.

:^)

I think I did pretty well, she seemed to love it all. :^)

She got me a leather bound journal for me to better record my daily life in, I dunno if thats gonna make me post less.

Probably not, but maybe you guys will start getting second drafts instead of firsts.

Have a happy Monday.

What a week.

I had to clean spyware off the downstairs computer because SOMEONE jacked it all up surfing porn. (Dont worry, I know who it was. There is a teenage boy in trouble for it)

I got umpteen million phone calls from my wifes aunt on things like, "whats a spacebar?" and the like.

I still need to finnish up my anniversary shopping before Sunday.

Im going to call my wife right now and arrange to take her out for lunch.

Last night I was alittle bored so I did some recreational reading on:

The relationship between Aleister Crowley and space aliens

and I perused this:

Wikipedia, list of extinct animals

New Lost tonight. Finally.

And in other news on the way to school today Melissa, who made it to school says, "I thought spring was supposed to be warm?!?!"

My reply, "Me too honey, Me too."

Melissa is not feeling so great today. Wife works too. Wife gets no paid time off.

I do.

Im staying home with Melissa.

I just have no more ambition, no more fight, no more hope.

Whats the point of any of it?

Im tired. Im sick. Im disgusted.

Im alittle depressed today.

:^P I hope it passes soon.

Ecxema Breakout.

Im having the worst Ecxema this year, I think it might be from my new sleep habits. Ugh. I have about 10 patches on my arms and a bunch in my ears and one little spot...

On the side of my nose!

Ugh...

Ive been using the cordaid but if anyone else has any other remedies I could try that would be great.

Ill be attempting to stay out of the wind as well.

:^(

Ugh, my wife was hitting the snooze button when I had to get up this morning, no time to blog...

Gotta go.

Me: Do you know if I have another pair of clean pants around here?
Wife: Did you wash any earlier?
Me: Of course not! I was just asking you a question!
Wife: Tee Hee Hee

Later that very same evening:

Wife: I want some chocolate...
Me: Did you go buy any earlier?
Wife: GRRRRRR
Me: Tee Hee Hee

Well, I was going to blog about this awesome turkey and stuffin' dinner I made last night. About how good and yummy it was, about how I barded it, and what that means(Its laying in fat, I made a butter spice rub that I slathered all over it).And how it made me fall asleep so early last night.

But...

This girl at work, who I actually this is younger than me...Died. She passed over the weekend. Husband found her in their living room. :^( poor guy. I saw that chick just recently and she looked as healthy as ever. I dont understand it. It really brings you back to your mortality when someone you know goes-so unexpectedly.

There but for the grace of God go I. Remember, it can always happen at any point in time. Pffft kaput.

Im making this handy list:

1. Make sure your family knows there is a do not resescitate order on you.
2. Make sure all those you love know you love them
3. Have life insurance.
4. Make sure family knows what you want done with remains.
5. Only buy one dungeons and dragons online monthlong subscription at a time.

Its sad that everything we think we are is tied to this mortal frame. Without it, well...You know what happens without it. Dont you? I think we can all agree that you dont interface with this world anyway, no matter what we all think comes next.

Ill be praying for that girls family.

Isnt blogger commenting a public service? that crap isnt private, just for you and your friends to use right?

I browsed the local bloggers the other day, commented on one of their blogs...Next thing you know they are saying I am mean and uncalled for, calling me names, saying I shouldnt be commenting on their blog.

Why?

Because I said they used the word "Like" like too much. Oh my goodness, how mean. I am a real a-hole.

Like, whatever.

Is lost going to be reruns until next season? Ive checked the schedule and as far as I can see (which is 2 weeks) its all reruns.

:^(

ABC I hate you.

Spring is coming, only a few days left until the equinox. Im pretty excited, not only for kite flying, easter and the spring things but for camping, bar-b-q's, tubing and the rest of summer stuff.

I need to dust off my speedo's. See y'all at the pool.

Ah...Now I feel much better! 3-4 hours sleep is much better than 8 and anyone who tells you otherwise has never seen me ragingly pissed off, growling and smashing things.

:^)

4 hours sleep Robert is a happy Robert.

HRM :^(

Im alot happier when Im only sleeping 4-3 hours a night. All last week I was doing that...Never got angry...Not once. I was in more of a "well who cares" mode...

Last night I slept from 11-7. And today Im ragingly pissed off inside of minutes being at work. Like ready to murder someone angry.

:^(

I need to get back to 4 hours sleep...

I hope I have nachos for dinner.

Speaking of which that new Jack Black movie looks pretty hilarious. And Im not even a Jack Black fan. He plays this guy who livs a double life as a Catholic Priest in the day and a Pro Wrestler at night.

http://www.nacholibre.com/

Yesterday was the beginning of lent, 40 days of no meat on fridays, and giving up your favorite TV show. Wow that must really help people to understand the suffering of Christ.

NOT

You shouldnt practice religeous observances at particulat points in time. You should live your life for your Lord, all day, everyday. To have a scheduled time to be pious is folly and it just makes it easier to not be righteous the other days of the year.


Also. I suffer, Christ suffered, we all suffer, this is the nature of the cosmos. You dont need to afflict yourself with suffering to understand Christ or his paternal counterpart, they have that covered for you so we all get the gamut of divinely inspired feelings.

And that my friends is why I dont practice Lent or take Zoloft.

OMG, that game is driving me to an early grave. 5 hours sleep again last night. I just cant stop! Its way too much fun! Ugh, waking up after 5 hours sleep is not so fun. I think Im going to have to start popping the caffeine pills, but the longer I wait the better, dont wanna crash at 3 PM.

In other news my Anniversary is coming up. I need to think of something nice and paper (1 year is the paper anniversary right?) to get my wife...Im thinking maybe I might frame our wedding certificate for her or something.

Ideas?