Yesterday, I think something gave, The world spun for a minute and when I regained my senses everything seemed...Well unreal. The material became less material. I could almost see whatever was behind the horizon. All my relationships with people seemed a little less important and my responsibilities seemed less crushing. For a second I thought I must have died. But now it just seems like my third eye was just pried open.

On the upside it makes me think that I have no reason to be angry anymore, maybe a little scared, maybe a little disoriented but not angry, and after all thats what I been praying for.

And so Im thinking of things in new and different ways its all very enlightening and just a little uncomfortable. But I find it kinda exciting, like Im starting the first day of the rest of my life or something. I know that sounds cheesy but that how it feels.

I guess this all sounds slightly crazy. If you think so then I must have had a stroke. :^)

Joe Mathlete Explains Today's Marmaduke

This guy cracks me up.

Heh.

Joe Mathlete Explains Today's Marmaduke

Lookit, Im sorry Im so full of hatred for humanity and I have no tolerance for people nay-saying me.

But you need to understand that my world view has become very poor. I am stressed out 8 ways to Sunday. Im apt to freak out on you for what you consider to be a joke but which strikes me as insulting and slanderous.

So FYI, if you dont want me to stab you with a broken beer bottle, or verbally cut you off at the knees then please dont aggravate me.

I certainly dont go to other peoples blogs and try to whittle them down with degradation and negative comments, so I wont put up with it here.

Have a nice day.

Is anyone else having blogger problems this morning?

Yikes I am.

All over the place.

UNGHHHHH

'Morning, Im continuing the story of a dream that was started by Flic yesterday(The beginning of the story is there if you would like to read it), Im not usually too into creative writing but I want to play along since flic seems very nice and I always like making new friends.

You can play along too. here are the rules.

1. You must continue the story from where you see my posted story ended.
2. Read only the posted story you see here. But don't post my posted story onto your blog. Post only your part of the story that you write, onto your blog.
3. You must continue the story in your own vein, and in your own style, etc. (Write at least 50 words. Add whatever you like, etc.), on your own blog.
4. Make your story available for others on your blog, so that others can continue the story after you. Tag others if you wish.
5. Be sure that you make a link available on your post to the person you continued from. And be sure to show a link to those who accepted being tagged. (So later, you and others could travel/click both ways and read the whole story!)

And heres the story

"Pull the coat shut! Its coming its coming!" The person on the bed said, and the knob made its jiggle-jaggle sound in the door. The dreamers could feel cold air pouring through the cracks beneath the door, and they heard the whistle of the wind buffet their ears. A snarling sound rose within the wind as the door came open. They could then see the great white wolf, he was large, larger than a normal wolf be, after all he wasnt a normal wolf, but he was very very thin, as though he hadnt eaten in quite a long time, yet blood dripped from his lips as he snarled at them. And they knew he was responsible for the deaths of many people not so much unlike them...And they both shivered from the cold that seemed to envelope them in his presence.

I wonder what its like

When all your friends are dead.

And you spouse is dead.

And your kids are grown and gone and too busy to have anything to do with you.

And your health is gone or going, you lost your home, you have no job.

And everything starts to go black because you are old and dying.

I wonder what its like, I wonder if people can keep their faith, while the world goes away and they cross over into the undiscovered country, all alone, maybe in pain, in the dark, with panic probably gripping their throats as they draw their last breaths. And you dont know whats coming next, I mean its easy to give lip service to something or even believe it when everything is hunky dorey and theres no reason to question it at least no good reason.

But when it gets dark, and your alone, and your passing through the very thinnest bottleneck of crushing pressure from reality and you know its your time and theres nothing you can do about it, and the chips are down and they arent coming back up.

I wonder what its like.

Well Im back at work. :^(

But I have resolved to hav e a good day. Nothing can stop me. Its all up to me.

Hopefully I can maintain that attitude tomorrow.

In other news I couldnt sleep last night. I kept having a nightmare that there were rats in my bed.

Ick.

Hope y'all have a nice day too.

Ive been getting the worst headaches for the past 4 days but they only come on when Im having sex.

It sucks.

Sounds like this thing. Hope it goes away soon.

I was playing video games at 2 AM this morning and my wife all of a sudden goes,

"PSSSST"

So...I turn around and look at her and she looks asleep, so half thinking Im crazy I go,

"PSSSST"

And Ill be damned if she doesnt go

"PSSSST"

Right back at me. I asked if she was awake, no responce. When I talked to her about it this morning she had no idea what I was talking about.

Weird.

In other news blogger was down earlier :^/

I decided Im notleaving the house again today.

But I will try to finnish off the dishes for the 3rd day in a row.

And Im making a yummy pork roast for dinner. I dont really know what to have with it tho because my potatos had flies on and to get more id have to...erm...leave the house.

Hmmm...I do have alot of rice...

My impression of Isreal-

Its not a war.

We are just dropping bombs on them and they are shooting rockets at us.

Its not a war.

We are just sending in tanks and ground troops and they are taking our soldiers hostage.

Its not a war.

I swear.

Now Die! Gentiles.

after today I have 9 days off.

9 days off. Yeah I said it. :^)

Stupid DDO was down until 1 am last night. I never got to play, things came up right as I was crashing into a pit of depression and going to sleep.

Turbine, you blow.

Can someone please tell me how 5 "go-gart" containers end up in my bathroom garbage?

Thanks

Someone asked me yesterday what blogs were my favorites.

Well...

It got me thinking. Im a big voyeur, I love reading about people (especially females, is that sexist of me, I just think girls are more interesting than guys) who I dont know. Its so interesting and non threatening just to dig into someones life who you will never meet.

Its always nice to think "Man, that girls got issues", or "Its good that some people out there still think and have a brain that they use on a daily basis", "thats too bad" or even "how cute!".

Most importantly it makes me think about someones life which is not mine! Not the day in day out computer drudgery I have to deal with, not the cooking of a thousand meals, not the breaking up of a hundred kid fights, not the bills, not the pressure, not the worries, not the anything of mine.

And that my friends has alot of value to me. So if you come around here, thank you.

Friday Night

Wife: Did you ask me this morning when I was sleeping if those clothes match?
Me: Yes, Do you remember what you told me?
Wife: -laughing- No? I think I said they didnt match but I dont really remember I was kinda still sleeping.
Me: Ugh! You said they did! Ugh!
Wife: -Laughing hysterically now- Oh Im sorry they dont.
Me: Lotta good you are! Ugh!

I had a very busy weekend.

I went tubing down the crow wing river and got a minor sunburn that went away already.

I made some Rasberry Jam from scratch (YUM!).

Housework while my wife was off at her friends, sweeping, mopping, dishes.

I made a new character in DDO, a halfling rogue, on the Kyber server. (I usually make them on the Fernia server but Im all full up there and I wanted to make a rogue...)

I hope everyone has a good day, and I myself will be trying not to get too angry today, so y'all better be doing your part too. Thanks. :^)

I made this graph representing the number of people working in my dept (Green) and the number of screaming fit anger episodes(red) I have a month.

I think there is a definite correlation.

Anger - Learning to Cope and Manage Anger

I have been so angry lately. All the time, sometimes at somthing, sometimes at little or nothing.

I dont know what my problem is. Im starting to think I have a big angry tumor growing in my head. Ugh.

This blog post could go on for hours but I really just want to link to this list for my own quick reference.

Thanks for bearing with me.

Anger - Learning to Cope and Manage Anger

I had a nice post planned. It wasnt me complaining as usual. I wasnt unhappy with any relatives or my job. It was supposed to be snippets of conversation I over heard at the bar last friday.

But now.

I can only remember one.

"He was in there up to the 2nd knuckle"

I knew I shoulda been writing this stuff down on bar napkins.

Oh well.

I am getting pretty darn sick of my mother in law.

She recently moved about 20 miles from where we live and man.

She is driving me nuts.

She owes me 500 bucks (since like 2 years ago), constantly has her hand out for something. And her controlling nature is driving me mad.

Yesterday, according to my wife we were supposed to go out there at 11, have lunch, come home at 3. I planned my day accordingly. Well we didnt end up leaving until 7. Then we get back to my house, and she wants to leave for the fireworks (which dont start until 10:30) at (I shit you not) 8:30. Like WTF Im going to stand around and stare at the grass for 2 hours?

Yeah I guess so.

I wonder how she will damper me next.

Ugh.

BTW this is my 777 blog post! Hooray!

Thank goodness my forefathers threw off the yoke of British oppression.

Now I dont have be told what todo by the government, Work for less than desirable wages for rich people in Briton. I am free to pursue happiness.

Instead I work for people in New York City, for less than desirable wages and Im free to do whatever I can afford.

Great. Thats progress!

GRRRR Angry Robert.

When you goto sleep angry....Do you wake up angrier (If thats a word)?

Do you see red and want to smash the whole world?

Are you sick of putting up with brat 17.5 year old kids, who think they know everything and you just want to tear out their tongues and throw them to the wolves and then say, "Gee looks like you didnt have it figured out after all, guess it takes more than an teenage girlfriend and a 300 dollar a month a job to understand the universe. Hope that will teach you to disrespect your betters, you sniveling little worm.-INSERT BACKHAND HERE- HAHAHAHAHA!"

or is it just me?