I wish I wouldnt get so mad over stupid little things. I pray about it. I try hard to not get mad. Whats wrong with me? Why do I have to become so enraged? I cant think when Im like that. I dont like it.

Yesterday, I was making dinner. And granted I was operating on not enough sleep but its no excuse. I was making mac and cheese with the little hot dogs mixed in and some peas on the side. I had everything ready and was going to put the hot dogs in. I went to get them out of the fridge.

They arent in the fridge.

My wife froze them.

Well at that point I started growling. Because my dinner was ruined. By the time I had them thawed out the mac and cheese had congealed. And my hand hurt from punching the refrigerator. I had booted my space heater accross the room because I didnt like the way it was looking at me. And growl growl growl.

Its just that when things dont go the way I plan them I get ragingly mad. Seeing red, and wanting smash everything, if I only could smash the world I would at those points. Im just consumed with fury and hatred.

Whats wrong with me?

Man, Getting up and coming into work at 5 AM really sucks...I shoulda come in over the weekend to do what I needed to do, but I really didnt feel like it. So here I am now. While my family is at home all snuggled up in their beds.

Im jealous.


In other news I watched that "the Fog" movie. I thought it sucked. I still dont get the ending...Plus I watched it until 12:30.

Need more sleep.

Lets talk about synestesia today, you guys ever hear of that? Its when your senses cross over each other and you get an extra perceptual sensation, estimates for how common it is range from 1 in 29 to 1 in 20000, the most common estimate is 1 in 2000 people experience this.

I do. Thats why I looked it up last night after I was talking to my wife about it and she thought I was crazy because the heater safety overheat noise makes me smell steel wool. I also get it in a dark room with music or loud noises...I see colored lights.

I dont have any of the letter coloring or color gendering symptoms. But hey...Maybe I should look for them more.

Heres a link to a google search on it...I went to a few matches but generally found most of the sites disapointing.

synesthesia

Anybody else ever experience this stuff?

I was pretty disappointed with the "baptismal" (or was it abysmal?) episode of Lost.

#1 I dont like Charlie. I always feel bad for him. Looking bad when he aint really done nothing.

#2 What the heck happened to Micheal? Anyone aware of the answer, please let me know.

#3 I dont like Charlie.

Oh but my friend Chad found this interesting theory on whats going on there, on the island.


Sounds good?

Sickness, sickness, sickness.

Sickness is going around my house.

2 days ago I was running a fever, yesterday I went home from work early.

Today Melissa is home sick and Dustin is whining.

Stay away from my house of plague.

Im sure I gained alot of weight this weekend. Especially from eating these yummy yummy pork ribs I made yesterday. YUM! And in general it was a heavy food weekend.

I wish it wasnt over.

Im so sick of new people! AHHHHH! Make it stop! They are hiring people with no desks and expect me to give them PC's, how can they have PC's with no desks?!? are they just gonna carry them around on their backs? Ugh!

Stop with the new people!

If you watch lost (I do even tho I promised ABC that I wouldnt), you might be interested in this "Swan Simulator"

Every 108 minutes the button must be pushed.

Get it here

If you find out what happens when you dont press the button lemme know.

Upon further review I really do think T00L is the best band thats ever existed.

Thank you.

Goodnight.

I was so sick yesterday! Ugh. Woke up at like 5 AM with the worst cramps. Threw up. Then it started coming out the other end. Ugh. Bad bad bad. Then when I finally got back up at 11:30 my one tooth just like turned to dust. It wasnt a perfect or an important one but man...Thats just disturbing.

I blame the vomit.

Have a good day!

Take ownership.

Thats what they say, they imply expectations but never give you anything concrete to go by. Then when crap turns out all wrong. Whos fault is it? Yours of course. Or they expect the unrealistic. Having minimum staffing under an ever increasing workload. This is the breakdown of American infrastucture in the 21st century.

Boy am I glad its friday.

Im not one to really miss anyone, but lately Ive been thinking about my family who I really dont ever talk to anymore. They complain that I never call them, but they never call me either. I know Im rationalizing but hey...thats what people do.

For what it worth:

Ancestors I am grateful that you contributed to my genetic material. Easpecially Nan and Pap. I miss you guys and I know you are getting old and you wont last forever. I should call you more and let you know that I love and miss you. But this is what happens when I live in another state with a full time job and 4 kids to take care of.

Sigh.

Thanks.

This morning 6:50 AM

Me: Honey, Your not wearing any pants FYI.
Wife(Barely Awake):Huh? Im wearing pants? Why did you wake me up?
Me: I wanted to make sure you were aware in case a kid came in here this morning. You arent wearing ay clothes.
Wife:Well! What happened to my clothes? I WAS wearing clothes!
Me:I know, beats me. But thats ok...you dont need clothes to lay here with me for 10 minutes before I get the kids up. Ill be good.
Wife:I just dont understand how this happened...
Me: Me niether. But its sorta nice, isnt it?
Wife:ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

JOY!


All my childrens computers are now up and running. The bad spell thats continued on for the past 6 motnhs of one or the other of them having spyware/needing reformat has come to an end.

We can now have 5 player network games everynight.

Until they wreck their machines again.

Lets hope they dont.

5 player age of empires 3, starcraft, call of duty, halflife, quake 3, doom 3 or rise of nations games are scheduled.

Ive been making some teacakes lately.
Heres the recipe:

2 1/4 c flour
1/2 c powedered sugar
1/2 tsp salt
1 tsp vanilla extract
1 c Butter (softened)
1 cup nuts/toffee/coconut/candy bits, crushed to fine. (your choice)

Preheat oven to 400F

Mix Butter/vanilla/powdered sugar until creamy.

In another bowl mix flour/salt/optional ingredients

Slowly add the dry mixture to the creamy mixture, mixing by hand vigerously, until mixture stiffens.

Form into 1 inch balls, bake at 400F for 10-12 min.

Remove balls from oven, and while still hot, roll twice in powdered suger.

Makes 4 dozen cookies.

How bout this nerd-type post-

I got my new server up last night.

Heh...Its old name was WEB_1. Now its named robodahobo.

But seriously:

dual intel xeon 700's
512 mb DIMMS
3) 30.6 gb ultra SCSI drive raid "zero-ed" for 105 gb's (Im not sure how that math works) in the hotswap bay (I have room for 3 more...but then Id hafta rebuild the RAID and I dont want to do that)
Dual power supplies.

Total cost to me= $0

I put it in the basement with no monitor/mouse...

But that let me clean alot crap off my machine. And now everyone can run ISO's off there and can delete them off their workstations. I also stuck all my mp3's on there...Kids should dig that...

I rule...to think they called that "Junk" when they asked me if I wanted it.

No one was interested in the virus post yesterday so I wont post links to the hotfixes for it.

See how you make me.

At any rate Ive had an extremely busy day and I must be off to the bank when I get off.

I know this posts sucks but hopefully no one I DONT KNOW will come by and tell me so.

And the mass media makes windows users quiver in fear...

Theres this new virus out there...from 12/26 and the media has gotten ahold of it and ran with the story that Jpgs can can infect your machine....

It looks to me tho like its not all that dangerous unless you detech the jpg and then do a thumbnail view on it.

I think what happens is the virus executes malicious code via the windows thumbnail viewer (oOoOoO scarey)

read all about it

http://vil.nai.com/vil/content/v_137760.htm

Maybe then you all wont be all scared.

Here is what happened to me over the weekend.

Wed 12/26

Snow removal signs are up I move my vehicle, as dictated...Park 2 blocks from my house (This is important later in the post dont forgot)

Thurs. 12/27

Snow removal signs are gone. They didnt plow...but whatever...I move my car back.

Sat 12/31

I come out to goto the store. My van has a ticket. "Emergency snow removal, $25". "what the f'!" I think. Im not going to let it ruin my new years eve tho. Im happy that my car didnt get a ticket. I shopped...Came home and had a nice evening of drinking, video games and karoke, good friends and good times.

Sun 1/1

Nothing notable happened, I slept most of the day away.

Mon 1/2

My f'ing car is gone! WTF!!! WTF!!! The wife calls the cop shop. They tell her the officer who had it towed will call.

She calls.
Yeah, you got a ticket for snow removal and you never moved the vehicle, blah blah blah" , but we didnt get a ticket, the wife says. "oh you were supposed to" says the f'ing pig. FINE, whatever.

Call the impound lot. oh $80 bucks huh? Oh I need to pay my ticket? Oh...Ok.

Wife calls the cop shop, "hey will you know how much our ticket is, we never got a copy", they say and to go in.

Meanwhile the pigs supervisor calls us back, "Um yeah, you shouldnt have gotten towed if you didnt get a ticket" (Well no shit, I can see why they made you supervisor of the other piggies, your a real genius.). So you must have been ticketed on saturday or your car wouldnt be towed. (At this point Im screaming that Im not telepathic and how can they ticket me for "emergency snow removal", bullshit, bullshit, bullshit!

Get to the cop shop,"we are here to pay our ticket that we never received a copy of, its on a white cavalier...License plate blah blah blah", one second they say. Ok...

Seconds pass...

More seconds...

Them: "We arent showing that you ever got a ticket on that car."

Us:"then whyed you tow my car"

Them: "thats a good question, we cant figure it out"

Us: "does that mean we dont have to pay the tow yard?"

Them: "er...um...It doesnt work that way."

Us: "well which way does it work then?"

Them: "you will have to pay everything then talk to the city council to get reimbursed, you can get a form from the courthouse. But they are closed today"

Me: YOU FUCKING SUCK! Im out $150 bucks on this bullshit! OMG! OMG! WTF! MORONS! YOU STOLE MY CAR!!!!

So I am getting the form today and let me tell you someone is going to hear it from me. And I want my money back!

GRRRRR, oh I just got upset again thinking about it.