Im thinking about taking down my stupid worthless blog. It serves no purpose other than to anger me and cause me to hate people who are supposed to be my friends.

I am a bitter, angry, sad little man.

Maybe I should quit projecting that at least at the internet.

Ugh. Im sorry Im such an angry jerkface.

Im tired of everything, tired of being angry, tired of fixing clogged drains and computers and peoples emotional states, tired of carrying everything on my shoulders, maybe I should take that logic one step further and quit projecting it on the earthly plane as well.

I am pathetic.

Now go away or comment or whatever it was you were doing before you got here.

I hate you because I hate myself. Too bad Im a gutless worm or maybe I could take some action to end it all.

I am feeling alittle better today. My throat is still alittle sore, but alot better than yesterday.

It is getting COLD here.

Tonights low is supposed to be 5 degrees F. Brrrr. My van doors this morning were all frozen shut. I managed to get 2 of them open so me and the kids could get in and out but it was big cold pain in the neck.

Also I had a fight with my wonderful and loving wife last night over what constituted probable cause. See the cops stopped and "shook down" our 17 year old last night at 10:30 on his way home from his girlfriends house because they said HIS HAT made him look like he was under 16, (Curfew for <15 year old kids is 10 PM here). I proceeded to say that anyone could wear any hat so I didnt think that was a good reason to stop him and give him the third degree over his clothes. However my wife seemed to think they should be able to stop anyone anytime for any reason. This cultivated with me telling her if she wanted to shit on george washington and wipe her ass with the constitution then fine, I wasnt arguing with her anymore.

But I know Im right, cops shouldnt stop people for wearing silly hats, I mean, do they think they are the fashion police or what? More like the facist police.

Have a good day.

I am feeling a bit under the weather today, hurty eyes, sore throat, maybe what I though was depression yesterday was really the first signs of me getting sick.

In other news Im nominated to win 5000 bucks for a customer service award thingy come thursday. Theres 110 people nominated and they are awarding 20 cash prizes. So I have about a 1 in 5 chance of winning. I hope I do because then I could everyone some really nice x-mas presents.

Wish me luck!

I feel pretty down today, I had a fight with my boss on friday and my stupid feelings got hurt so then of course I was mean and hurtful back and its been weighing on me all weekend.

Not too pleased with myself for being mean and wrathful. I need to work on that crap.

But yeah anyway Im kinda depressed about it.

I had a good thanksgiving, too much food, as is always the case. But it was fun and I was busy cooking most of the day.

I had a little tiff with Dustin but we made up.

Supposedly we are going to be released from servitude today at 2 PM. We will see if I can make it that far. Then I can start my nice and uneventful weekend. (at least on saturday I wont have any kids because they are going to their relatives house.)

Everyone have a great weekend.

:^)

Thank you Lord, for sharing your love, your wisdom and your grace with us, and allowing us this time to be together. We also thank you Lord for all we have, have had, and will have in the future, according to your will. Amen.

Today is kinda like a friday, Ive been calling it half friday, because I do have to come back on friday. But Ill take a thursday off with pay, thats fine.

We are bringing the following to thanksgiving dinner tomorrow

A Turkey (Made by me, barded and garlic'ed)
Seafood Gumbo (Also made by me)
Swedish Meatballs (I believe I will make these too)
Stuffing (I am not making some boxed stuffing, so my wife must be doing it)
YAMS (I hate everything about these, so Im not touching it)
Gravy. (Also from a packet, I assume my wife is making it)

And I still need to come up with a good grace. Paulzy was a big help in yesterdays comments but I still need to iron that out and make it into a workable speach.

Wish me luck and everyone have a nice mini-weekend and holiday!

Well, My hands have pretty much quit burning, thats good.

I watched that Slither movie last night, for being "Night of the Creeps" it wasnt that bad. I actually enjoyed it. And I dont usually like to sit around and watch movies.

In other news my wife has a dentist appointment today. 11:30. I hope that all goes well. But I dont trust dentists so we will see what happens. After that she is going out to her friends to help spiff up the house because that is where we are having thanksgiving dinner.

Also I need to write the grace, I know it doesnt sound like a big deal, BUT some people are out of work (And have been for a long time) and other peoples spouses/parents recently passed away so being thankful for our jobs or our family is kinda out. Please leave any ideas you may have regarding this in the comment section for my perusal.

Thanks and have a great day.

I made a gallon+ of gumbo over the weekend. It was delish, not too fishy, not too hot, just right. Full of oystery, clammy, crabby, shrimpy goodness. I froze probably about 2/3 gallon for Thanksgiving (Some people were requesting I make/bring it). And that all went extremely well...

However, while cooking it in an incredibly huge pot I kinda burnt my hands on the steam, not that it left any marks or anything but somehow it like infused my hands with hot spices, my hands feel like they are burning ever since, and when I rub my eyes or touch my mouth or nose I get firey hot pepper burning in those, like I just had a bad run in with the cops and they took their pepper spray to me. (Not that I kow what that is lik) I have washed my hands about 50 times, did dishes and prayed my hands would quit burning, to no avail.

Burn Burn Burn.

I guess it will pass with time.

Sunday post again. Isnt it good to know the following (John 4, 31-38)?

31 In the mean while his disciples prayed him, saying, Master, eat.

32 But he said unto them, I have meat to eat that ye know not of.

33 Therefore said the disciples one to another, Hath any man brought him ought to eat?

34 Jesus saith unto them, My meat is to do the will of him that sent me, and to finish his work.

35 Say not ye, There are yet four months, and then cometh harvest? behold, I say unto you, Lift up your eyes, and look on the fields; for they are white already to harvest.

36 And he that reapeth receiveth wages, and gathereth fruit unto life eternal: that both he that soweth and he that reapeth may rejoice together.

37 And herein is that saying true, One soweth, and another reapeth.

38 I sent you to reap that whereon ye bestowed no labour: other men laboured, and ye are entered into their labours.

Lets see, lets see, what to blog about?

Hmmm, my wife wants to double pay all the bills so we dont have to pay them again before christmas. Probably is a good idea.

So thats like 9,000,000 dollars right there.

Hmmmm, Plan on getting those pictures taken this weekend.

Hmmmm, DDO?

I dont know...Have a good weekend!

Well I didnt get to any sawing last night, I did however get that banana bread Ive been talking about made.

I had an little debate with my wife that its a myth that people take LSD and never come down. She doesnt seem to belive it, but I couldnt find any hard evidence either way. The closest I could come was the wikipedia article said that there was no evidence that it did, however it also said there was no evidence that it didnt. And snopes.com didnt have anything about it either...

So if any of you know the validity of this "urban myth" let me know.

Hopefully Ill have those pictures for the people who wanted them tomorrow.

:^) have a nice day!

I need to saw off my toenails...Ugh...They are like rhino horn or something, piano keys maybe? Its such a gigantic pain...I wouldnt mind so much but they are too big and thick to use even the BIG nail clippers on. So I literally have to cut them off with a hunting knife...I put it off as long as possible...Maybe Ill post some pictures of them when Im done(I know your all looking forward to that).

Have a good day.

Whatever you do, dont watch "Seed of Chucky" OMG it was the worst movie I have ever seen. And Ive see the toxic avenger.

Let me tell you that speak volumes about how bad the movie was.

Just bad.

In other news I think Ill make a banana bread tonight when I get off work. Then Ill eat the whole damn thing myself, IN YOUR FACE KIDS! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Today my kids were such a pain to get out of bed. Stephen just coughed at me, Melissa I had to wake up twice, Dustin is always a pain to get up, and John just started to cry about how his stomach hurt.

So I woke up my wife and asked her to take care of it. Everybody except Stephen ended up going to school.

Whats with crying when your sick, I mean its not like hes 8, hes 13. Whats to cry about? I mean, I want to ball my eyes out every weekday of my life, BUT I dont. I guess thats part of being a man, not crying over the crap you have to do.

I am going to go cry now.

Lets keep looking at some prophesy of Isaiah, I just love when old testiment prophesy supports new testiment happenings.

Isaiah 42

1 Behold my servant, whom I uphold; mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth; I have put my spirit upon him: he shall bring forth judgment to the Gentiles.

2 He shall not cry, nor lift up, nor cause his voice to be heard in the street.

3 A bruised reed shall he not break, and the smoking flax shall he not quench: he shall bring forth judgment unto truth.

4 He shall not fail nor be discouraged, till he have set judgment in the earth: and the isles shall wait for his law.

5 Thus saith God the LORD, he that created the heavens, and stretched them out; he that spread forth the earth, and that which cometh out of it; he that giveth breath unto the people upon it, and spirit to them that walk therein:

6 I the LORD have called thee in righteousness, and will hold thine hand, and will keep thee, and give thee for a covenant of the people, for a light of the Gentiles;

7 To open the blind eyes, to bring out the prisoners from the prison, and them that sit in darkness out of the prison house.

Friday friday friday, already we meet again my love, although I only see you once a week, I feel we have a very special relationship. You make me feel as though all the drudgery has been worth it, like theres hope (At least for 2 days), I feel free, I feel safe, when you hold me in your arms, Friday, I know I love you. I know you'll leave me, in the morning, but I dont care, in the here and now Friday, youre mine.

I could not sleep last night, I layed in bed worrying about my existance being snuffed out. How I deserve to be snuffed out. How I never used to feel this way. How I did used to feel this way when I was a little kid. How things were when I was a little kid. How I should be sleeping already. How maybe the next position I lay in would numb my mind from the rollercoaster I was on.

Ugh.

Time to wake up!

People make me mad.

There I was in the Pheonix tavern (In DDO) and I am being my heavy repeating crossbow character, a fighter level 7, and Im fighting this lvl 11 fighter and I keep almost killing him. Which I feel pretty good about because hes like 4 levels better than me...Well out of the blue-

11 fighter- Your so cheesey and I still killed you! ha ha!
Me: I am only level 7, and you are level 11
Me: you dishonor yourself.

OoOoO I was so mad about it, why do people have to be gigantic JERKS!

Also Jon Bon Jovi might be a nice guy, he could be totally cool, BUT If I hear living on a prayer one more time Im going to commit suicide.

Claven.

I was puking sick yesterday, I still feel barfy today.

Meh...

So the moral of the story si I dont really feel like posting much of anything.

Please send your prayers.

Last week I was looking at Matt 12, and it was talking about Isaiah and the arm of God...Well I was looking at the book of Isaiah and theres just so much goodness in there I wanted to post about I had a hard time pinning down what I wanted to publish...So hey, if you get a chance, go look at the book of Isaiah...Its pretty amazing stuff...Anyway on with more talk about the "the arm" (now mind you this is old testament and I was looking at the direct translation from hebrew and its not very far from this.)

Isaiah 53
1 Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed?

2 For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.

8 He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.

9 And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.

11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.

12 Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

Well, I was going to call in today. Im so sick of of it.

BUT

My conscience wouldnt allow for me to do that.

Im such a sucker.

I have to goto a memorial service today.


I had a fight with my wife about it last night because I had the audacity to say , "Life is for the living" and other pearls of wisdom such as "How can I feel bad about God's will when I pray for it to be done everyday?" or "If you really had faith in Jesus Christ and the plan for eternal salvation of ALL men, you wouldnt get so broke up by this, after all it makes death not near as final as you guys are making it out to be."

Well then she got mad and started to yell at me.

But anyway, I am going to the memorial, to show my support for the guys son, even though like I told my wife, "There is nothing I can say or do to ease his pain from his fathers death". I do feel sorry for him. Im sorry that life is fleeting. Im sorry that we dont have documented fact about the afterlife. Im sorry that people dont build enough faith while they are alive to be secure with death (I work on it everyday).

I love my wife, and Im sorry I got in a fight with her at 12 AM and I layed in bed until 2 stewing about death.

Meh.

I had the weirdest dream last night...In it I was "inhabiting" the body of someone who was not me. Some sort of soldier. Well me and the people I was with (None of them I knew in "real life") were on our way to some border-land. In the dream I was trying to tell the others I was with that their world was not real. I remembering using the term simulation. I told them that they could "Be whatever they believed themselves to be", and that I would do what I could to help them, In the course of the dream, my direct "boss" had been shot and killed (It was a woman who had shot him, in the middle of the night because she wanted his gloves, it was very white and cold and snowy wherever we were.). Well since it was just a dream, I raised him from the dead. They were all quite impressed by this but I insisted that it was nothing and then I woke up.

I came to wondering just how real this world was.

Weird.

Be sure to take a look at my pumpkin picture below and have a great day.